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8:41pm: I was a sucker and had to ask so now this gets posted...

School's almost done forever as an undergrad! woohoo!
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1:31pm: Wow, I remember LJ...
So... it's been forever and a day since I last checked up on LJ. I fully realize it's mostly due to the dead computer since when I'm in the labs I'm either just checking Digg or doing honest to god work. So yeah, nothing too interesting to report. Sent the motherboard back to get fixed so hopefully I should be online again, started posting to FA once more, and am just generally trying to finish up my last semester of classes and still pretend to care. Bring on a summer full of cookouts and Madison visits!

In other news, apparently I'm really fuckin' neurotic


My Personality

Neuroticism	99
Extraversion	18
Openness to Experience	65
Agreeableness	33
Conscientiousness	41

You don't usually get angry too easily but some things can annoy you, however you are sensitive about what others think of you. Your concern about rejection and ridicule cause you to feel shy and uncomfortable around others. You are easily embarrassed and often feel ashamed. Your fears that others will criticize or make fun of you are exaggerated and unrealistic, but your awkwardness and discomfort may make these fears a self-fulfilling prophecy. You are not prone to spells of energetic high spirits. You prefer familiar routines and for things to stay the same. You can tend to feel uncomfortable with change. You are willing to take credit for good things that you do but you don't often talk yourself up much, however you believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary. You are guarded in new relationships and less willing to openly reveal the whole truth about yourself. You are well-organized and like to live according to routines and schedules. Often you will keep lists and make plans.

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8:37am: Late MFF Post-con Report
Dizzam but has it been a wild little trip. Sorry for all reading this since it's so late... read on to find out why...

CURRENTLY
So, the past month and a half or so has been seriously kicking my sorry little butt from here to the curb. I've been putting in my field experience hours on top of 14 credits worth of classes (I know, not a ton) along with working my piddly ass minimum wage job. What that adds up to is a 12 to 15 hour day, every day, since about halfway through October. Even weekends have been chewed up by an extracirricular project I've been working on for the Physics department and will hopefully (eventually) get paid a pretty penny for. That along with my computer periodically spazzing out has just made me generally tweaked out and stressed. (It currently seems convinced that the motherboard isn't receiving power for some odd reason) So... long ass days and when I do make it home, all the labs on campus are already closed and I have no computer with which to do work. Stressful! The good news is that after this friday, field experience comes to an end which will give me an additional four hours a day or so for class work. I'm also pretty much done in O Chem since I scored well enough on the first two exams and the final can be dropped that the one remaining test won't really drop my grade no matter how poorly I do. So one more week and I can take that deep breath finally and die a lil' on the inside.

For those of you who know me pretty well, I've also quit smoking. It's been a week and things are actually going surprisingly well. Though I've woken up a couple times from dreaming about those delicious cancer sticks, I've really only gotten one or two real cravings for them and the urge to strangle anything that moves has mostly passed. If I can make it to finals cigarette free I'm in the clear.

MFF REPORT
I had to attend my classes on friday since I had some quizes, a study session, and a mandatory attendance class. I was done by 1 though and Bunnah and Don the Squirrel drove out from Madison, we all piled in my car, and away we went. Drive was uneventful though it seemed very surreal to be back for the first couple hours. Man, there's nothing quite like the sight of 2000+ crazy fanboys wearing ears in a hotel lobby. *blinks* Spent the first night getting folks settled in, saying hellos to old friends and throwing back a few drinks.

Saturday was the serious social day. I spent the entire time running around like a headless chicken trying to get in touch with everyone I know and I think I did a pretty lousy job of it. I managed to spend just enough time that everyone got pissed they didn't get to see me more which I'm sorry about. If you're reading this, odds are I feel like I slighted you. Sorry. I did bid on something in the art auction for the first time though and won. A neat little creepy painted mousetrap by Jill0r (sp?). Day ended with Bunnah getting me drunk enough to dance at the rave. I'm sure that was quite the sorry sight. In other news, glow sticks are fuckin' pimptastic when you're wasted.

Sunday was my realization that I still hadn't really "done the con" and time was rapidly running out. Much frantic running around artist's alley occured though most people I wanted commissions from were obviously full up and prints were never really my thing. Did a few art trades, bought some random schwag, and generally felt content though. Next year I hope to make it in early on friday and get my "shopping" out of the way early. The dead dog party that night was a disaster though. I invited 4 people and 17 showed up, most of who I didn't know. They then proceeded to be rowdy, loud, and very inebriated to the point where myself and all my friends thought we were going to get the police called on us. Spent the rest of the night trying to make nice with them and getting the drunk fucks out the door. Woohoo.

Woke up monday at 5 AM to roll out in time for a quiz, a test, field experience, a discussion, and a close shift for work. Only had to pull over once to walk around in the cold and wake up so I didn't kill us all. No good FIB drivers. So yeah, that was pretty much it... all just a terrible blur. Which leads me to...

POST CON AND THANKSGIVING
Got back from the con and I was done smoking. My throat felt all funky but I just figured that was my body's way of bitching that it wanted nicotine. Turns out I picked up a case of strep that was so severe I got put on 10 days worth of antibiotics and the doc gave me vicoden for the pain. I couldn't make the drive home so I was pretty much laying around the apartment feeling sick and sorry for myself until Bunnah kidnapped me to go spend the holiday with him and his mom. It was one of the most meaningful gestures ever. I got to meet his friend Karen (read crazy insane inappropriate bitch... I loved her!) and curl up with him to watch movies and generally watch the room spin while feeling poorly. Strangely enough, I had a wonderful time. I think his mom really likes me, it was nice to see his house and the town he grew up in, and we got to embaress him by going through old baby books. awwww! A cutie from the very beginning!

So yeah... I'm finally getting over that con crud, had a good if stressful time out there, survived Thanksgiving, and school's all downhill if I can hold out another week. Overall I feel accomplished and more than a little proud of myself for having survived. I'll be on sporadically till I can get my computer fixed again so I'm not ignoring you... Wish I could have spent more time with everyone at the con but get in touch before next year and we'll set up plans in advance to hang out!

11:13pm: and...
"If you could meet your sixteen-year-old self now, what five things would you say?"

1. Trust yourself. Your opinions and judgments are just as valid as the world's. Don't let them dictate your life but don't completely ignore them either.
2. It's okay to ask for help. It always makes the problem easier and seem smaller. It only hurts your pride and that can heal.
3. It's okay to say no. Live for yourself sometimes. You don't ever need to feel obligated to please others just because.
4. You're still young so have a fucking blast. Do stupid and irresponsible things from time to time as long as you stay safe and smart about it. It always makes for a good story in the end.
5. It gets better. Even if you may not believe it in the moment, know that in the long run life always gets better for you.

11:03pm: Thanks to everyone for the kind comments. I'm in a much better place and, if I don't get to it, go ahead and shoot me a message. Life's been a bit crazy as of late and I don't want people to think they were/are being ignored. Classes along with general life just kinda dragged me down for a bit there. Love you guys

1:57am: Sorry
To all those I've dropped out of touch with in the previous month or so... I'm deeply and seriously sorry. I've had an amazing amount on my plate and I honestly haven't meant to. When I'm feeling more stable and up to it, I promise I'll get back in touch and catch up.

To those who've been around with me the past month or so. I apologize for being distant, twitchy, or otherwise odd. At this point I need space. I need space badly. I'm a nervous wreck who's beginning to become supremely paranoid of people and I'm borderline for either becoming a shut in recluse, a runaway, or a homicidal killer and at this point, I don't know which is most likely.

Give me a week.

We'll see how things are going from there.

4:02am: Fuck you Tug
Fuck you Tug. I know this isn't your fault but in a way it is because here I am at 4 AM wide fucking awake because of an offhand comment. "Let's remember our dreams tonight". So this is the warning filter right here and now. If you're overly sensitive, are having a bad day, just ate, or are even just a semi-decent person... stop reading. I dunno, go read a book instead. Hell, fly a kite. Kick a kid with Downs syndrome. I don't really care.

To any of you still reading, you're too brave for your own good because my mind's a fucked up little playground and you can't say I didn't warn you.
Seriously though. This IS a disturbing post. I guarantee it will ruin your day. Read at your own risk.

The dream started with me being thrilled about having a new fangled phone for some reason. A nice, innocent little start. A pretty new phone. Admiring the shiny scratch free metal, poking around at the various high tech looking gadgets attached and kinda wondering what the heck they do. And then it vibrates in my hand. A little text box flashes up with "Trade Pictures?" and a button for yes and no and a portrait of who was trying to trade with me. A quiet looking little gothy type that, I'll admit, I don't remember all that much about except that she had dyed black hair, a couple of earrings in her ears, and a vacant little smile.
Well, this was all rather new to me and still exciting that I could even TRADE pictures!!! (I consider my current phone amazing because it has a color screen that displays about five colors so piss off, this was neat) so of course I said yes. Instantly, in a dazzling flash of movement, windows style screens start popping up all over the phone's screen, getting bigger and bigger until they're all I can see... and then, a perfect ring of photos laid out in front of me. (from this point on, it was very much like a roller coaster ride as some dreams are, I could watch everything move past but I couldn't really do anything. Just a spectator)
It was Missouri (I just knew for some reason) back in the midst of the civil rights movement and the first picture was of a KKK rally. The usual cowardly douches gathered in a church, fists raised in their knee jerk solidarity and the salve of 'hey, if we hate them, maybe that means we suck less'. Nothing too special, just a big ol' black and white picture. And then the next picture of a baby rolled around to replace it. A fucking dead baby. Not just dead though.
It was an African American baby. I could tell because the head was still largely intact but the body had been burned away. The limbs had been reduced to nothing but a powdery ash centered in a darker scorch while the torso was all melted fat and gristle clinging to a rib cage. And then the next picture which was more of the same... and over and over and over and over again. Nothing but burned, dead, black babies.
Somewhere in this jolly romp the pictures slowly gained color. And then they slowly gained motion. Now I wasn't just watching a slide show of these Auschwitz rejects, now I got to watch them in full Technicolor glory complete with (I shit you not) the occasional spoon dipping into the slimy, glistening mass in the center and poking about, sometimes coming back up with a few shreds of person congealed on.

Alright. Ready for things to get weird?

For a break from the now monotonous slaughterfest I saw my dad and Bill Cosby sitting on a grassy little hill with a bike path running behind them on a sunny day, just chatting it up. Now, I'm not really sure exactly what the heck happened but the scene shifted back to the corpses. Somehow, one of these babies with the still largely intact heads and the burned away bodies, was being forced through a fine mesh fishing net head first. Except it was alive. Best visual way I can describe it was like forcing Silly Putty through a small hole. It kind of... oozed. But as soon as it was through the net it began to balloon back outwards, still very much recognizable as the head of a small child, before gradually returning to it's original size and shape but with the skin pulled back like one of those 90 year old movie actresses with a few dozen too many face lifts. And it just kept growing. When it was about the size of my head, it began to mouth silent things and writhe, all while my point of view was slowly panned backwards so I could see this entire mess was sitting in a little red wagon.
The head continued to grow until it was about the size of a decent watermelon and then the wagon started to roll forwards, the entire time the baby with the facial skin running like liquefied wax screamed soundlessly as its charred husk of a body kicked about. And suddenly the wagon was on the bike path and I could see that it was rolling up to the pair (father and Cosby) from behind and they hadn't seen it yet. It wasn't really making any noise so they just kept on talking as it silently rolled up behind them and then waited. It was only a couple of seconds before Bill Cosby got that weird neck prickle that someone was watching before turning around... just in time to come face to face with the baby head which let out a single ear piercing shriek and then exploded into gooey, disgustingly gelatinous shreds all over his face. And then I woke up.

Somehow I don't think I'll be going back to bed tonight. My mind scares the bejesus out of me sometimes. I need a hug.

12:59am: Art Dump
*sleepy flop* Just spent the last three or four hours posting (almost) everything I've ever done on furaffinity. For those that care, here's the link. I'm gonna go keel over now.

http://www.furaffinity.net/user/mitok/

1:48am: 71%The Movie Quiz

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4:30pm: A general announcement
I suppose I should let everyone know... I'm going to be hitting up AC this year. I'll get in Thursday night and I'll be staying till Monday morning so if you're going to be there or in the area, lemme know and we'll have to hang out! =)

And also... I forgot to mention I got my second ink job. Ask if you want to see it

11:23pm: Lazarus Two Point Oh Bitches

Mingle² - Online Dating

Gawdamn but it's been awhile now hasn't it? So, it's been so crazy and hectic I suppose the best I can do is a short summary of life up to this point. I'd make the same old broad promise of 'I'll start posting more often I swear' but we all know that'd be a lie now don't we? =P

Let's see... The Whitewater group hit up Chicago bowling twice now. Both were interesting with the first being filled with drama and the second being filled with alcohol and massive amounts of inappropriate. Point to Tug for locking the keys in the car only to realize Phauxe had a spare after five minutes on the phone with AAA.

Plenty of coffee meets too (this is turning into the summer of furry) both in Madison and Milwaukee. Usually we bring our group, pull up our own table, and ignore everyone till they flock to us cause we're awesome like that or somethin'. As usual, Tug brings the gay and Nemi's like a puppy who doesn't know how big he is... tsk tsk, always crashing into things, such a blonde. =P And we got to see Hooktail's new dog and laugh at the pounced ads. Amusing all around.

Went to Six Flags with Pooch, Leigh, and Drew which was a blast. Wasn't terribly hot, didn't rain, and the lines were tolerable so we got to do all the fun stuff in a reasonable amount of time. Only sad thing was the giant drop ride was shut down since the 13 year old lost her feet on one. *fist shake* Stupid kids. Plus I was good and remembered sunscreen since I have no desire to become a lame version of the human torch.

Classes have been tolerable. I'm already done with one (Intro to Educational Philosophy) which was lame as shit. The teacher was terrible and we didn't DO anything besides write feel good mission statements and BS out philosophy statements. I'm sorry but I don't want to write a five page essay on what an "excellent educator" is when I don't even know how to be an average one. wtf? The other still going on is great though (Intro to Educational Psych). The subject matter is pertinent, interesting, and my god but is the prof ever good. I think I first realized that when we took our break and everyone went outside and just continued the previous conversation... now that's skill! (plus he's kinda hot for an older guy and I kind of have a crush on him) >.> So yeah, one more week in there then my last class starts up. Coolies! It's keeping me busy enough that I'm not bored but I still get free time.

And the big news: I got my butt back into the gym. After a three year hiatus I'm back and enjoying myself. I plopped down my gym membership money already and I'm enough of a tightwad that that'll be incentive enough to keep going back in. And apparently I'm still in better shape than I thought. I was able to run an 8 minute mile yesterday and felt pretty good... after having spent half an hour on the bike machine. We'll see if I can cut it back down to 7 like I'm hoping. So, pretty much getting back in shape is my goal, though I'd love to tone myself up a little and hopefully work on my arms and pecs.

Apart from that, nothing much but randomness. Been hanging out with random folks, consuming far too much coffee, and generally being a lazy college student over the summer. I really should find a job but... nah! =P

1:28pm: So, I got 100% on my dynamics test. Woo-fuckin-hoo considering my exam average has been about 40% so far this semester. Plus a paper got pushed back to a monday so as I sit now I just have two papers and a presentation left on top of a handful of smaller assignments. Don't get me wrong, I'll still have to work but it's now seeming very doable. And now for randomness...

1. Can you cook?

2. What was your dream growing up?

3. What talent do you wish you had?

4. Favorite place?

5. Favorite vegetable?

6. What was the last book you read?

7. What zodiac sign are you ?

8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?

9. Worst Habit?

10. Do we know each other outside of LJ?

11. What is your favorite sport?

12. Negative or Optimistic attitude?

13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?

14. Worst thing to ever happen to you?

15. Tell me one weird fact about you:

16. Do you have any pets?

17. Do you know how to do the macerana?

18. What time is it where you are now?

19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?

20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?

21. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?

22. What color eyes do you have?

23. Ever been arrested?

24. Bottle or Draft?

25. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it?

26. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew?

27. What 's your favorite bar to hang at?

28. Do you believe in ghosts?

29. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?

30. Do you swear a lot?

31. Biggest pet peeve?

32. In one word, how would you describe yourself?

33. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

3:15pm: Happy belated Zombie Jesus Day everyone! Let us all take a moment between boarding up the windows and stocking up on 12 gauge rounds to remember the true spirit of the season. And remember... only headshots make the magical chocolate easter bunnies spill out!

12:27am: And as an afterthought... FUCK YOU MOTHER NATURE YOU COCKTEASE! Way to go from 83 degrees outside where it was actually shorts and t-shirt weather while we were grilling out... back down to 29 degrees. That's like taunting an ethiopian with a steak yo-yo... not cool man, not cool (or overly cool depending on your point of view)

12:16am: Nope, I ain't dead, just been busy like usual. I swear, I just want this semester to be done so all my math and science heavy courses are done with once and for all. *flop* It really isn't as bad as I make it out to be and I've always been finishing everything on time. It's just that it's all heavy-thinking intensive and when spring rolls around I get all antsy and sick of school.

On the bright side, a little more than a month left of school then I get a short break before my summer courses begin. Really, I'm stoked as hell. I'll finally be getting to spend some time in the classroom and starting to learn how to actually teach all this crap they've been cramming into my oversized skull these past 4 years. Kinda like the light at the end of the tunnel... everything's coming together at last.

Random life updates: I quit smoking, hopefully for good this time. Yes, I've said it a bunch but meh, when I actually become apathetic to the idea of smoking you know I got a good chance at it. (and Tug, thankies for saying no to a drunk at the bar) =P Got myself a Wii by camping out at 3 AM in front of the Walmart in the freezing cold when I was half asleep and disoriented. It sucked at the time but worth it now! Also made a couple introspective little discoveries and I'm kinda doing my best to grow up a bit and take responsibility for my life. Just little things like keeping more organized, staying on top of long term assignments, avoiding procrastination. Nothing big but they're important to me and it feels good to be making a change towards what I view as the better.

So now I'm going to bed. Went home for Easter and it's actually going alright all around. My grandparents have been playing Wii bowling, nothing major's blown up in my face, I got a watch battery changed out, and picked up a full 4 controlers from Best Buy (those bastards mark up the price crazy-huge btw). Just gotta survive tomorrow, the car ride back, and finish up a small handful of work before starting another week. Ah monotony... how I missed you

3:21am: I'm going to apologize in advance to everyone I drop out of touch with this week. I've severely underestimated how much work I have to make up (four tests, two lab reports, two lab notebooks, seven assignments) so I won't have time to sleep, let alone chat. At my current rate, I shouldn't be dead by friday and all my work will be done... I just won't get a chance to study for any of the tests. God help me cause one's dynamics and one's O. Chem. Oh well, midnight snack's gone so nose back to the grindstone

7:16pm: Huge Ass Update
So, it's been forever since I posted so I gots some catching up to do...

Fishy came down for a three day weekend: Rocked. Lots of art was made, a good time was had, and we ended the whole thing with a night out at the Inferno with Nemi, Lethe, Leigh, J-Fucks, and Bunny. I'll get the pictures back when we eventually get the roll developed but yeah, it was a freakin' gas. We were the first ones in the club and spent the evening drinking heavily and dancing. I forgot how much I miss clubbing. That'll definately have to be a repeat

Aaron Lewis acoustic concert in Milwaukee: Holy shit. So, for those of you who don't know (check the screen name bitches =P) I've been a fan of staind since Dysfunction came out and I've kept up with their entire discography. Needless to say, getting to see him do an acoustic show has been a dream of mine for years since the guy is kind of a personal hero and their music kept me going through some hard times. The show was kinda hit or miss. Lots of hecklers and people generally being rowdy (to the guy who wanted Pink Floyd played... and repeated this, quite vocally, every thirty seconds, go eat a cock. You deserve to get plowed Mr. Hands style) which wasn't so bad all in all. He played a lot of their newer stuff which was either subpar or I wasn't as familiar with which I was dissapointed in, but he did play "Bonghits for Breakfast", "Outside", "It's Been Awhile", and he covered Tool's "Sober" on his acoustic... all of which were orgasmic. So, one more thing to check off on my 'things to do before I die' list.

Advising and my college career: Moving along. I found out I'll be in school for another year and a half as well as taking courses this summer. I'm not too happy with the whole longer than five years thing but considering I've changed my major three times and transferred schools (don't get me started on the shit I had to put up with over that fiasco) five and a half isn't bad at all. I'll be student teaching part time this summer and then most of next year. What it all means in a nutshell.. I'll be taking about 12 - 14 credits for my remaining semesters so I'll be able to breathe a little. I also only have three science courses and one physics course left so my academic masochism can cease at last. I have a plan, it's doable, and I'll survive school. I'm just really sick of academia at this point and kinda want out, despite being scared to death of the "REAL WORLD" I'll have to enter at the end of it all. Oh well, one step at a time I suppose.

Sick as hell: Sucks balls. So, sunday I felt a bit under the weather but I thought it was just a combination of the dry air, too little sleep, and stress. Went out to eat with my grandparents, did my homework, and went to bed. I woke up with a fever of 103.5 and couldn't physically get out of bed. After a few days of that, I finally dragged my tail into the doctor and found out I had pneumonia AND the flu together. My blood pressure had also fallen to dangerous levels due to severe dehydration so I was put on horse-sized antibiotic pills and given two liters of saline via IV. I missed the entire week of class, wasn't able to fix my two long running experiments that had gone wrong, missed three lab write ups, and a bunch of assignments. On top of that, now I have a take home test to do and an in class exam come wednesday. Yeah, this upcoming week will be a desperate race against time to get everything done. Funny how life kicks you in the ass at the worst possible time but yeah, I'm feeling better now, just a bit worn down and tired all the time. Pray for me.

St. Paddy's Day: Meh. So, I was under doc's orders not to drink cause I was still on antibiotics. Well, I'll be damned if they take MY holiday from me and went ahead and did anyways. I was fine and had some fun. We all went out bowling, and then went back to Joel's, then to Nick's to play Wii. Like I said, I had fun but... I dunno. It just seemed kind of lame and empty. =/ Maybe it's just me being bitchy and still a bit sick.

Which all brings me to life in general. (warning, emo alert) This really isn't whiney so much since I can't really complain but... I mean, I have wonderful friends, I'm doing well in school (found out I made the Dean's list last semester and likely will again this semester), and for the first time, my life's kind of under control. But at the same time, I always find myself supremely unhappy and I don't know why. I'm still single and that's not likely to change anytime soon. I'm not one of the people who feels the need to define themselves and their happiness by being with someone but being around couples all the time is just a constant reminder of something I don't have. Somedays I crave the physical closeness and being able to cuddle up to someone. Sometimes I just really want to be able to know someone likes and wants me (greedy and self-centered, I know) and I can't help that which frustrates me. That odd, niggling lonliness combined with a constant feeling of being behind in school has me just plain tired of life. I wish I knew why I've felt panicked and trapped and discontent so much the past few months but it's just a constant feeling of dread that I can't shake. Kind of like someone who's claustrophobic and has been living in an efficiency for awhile. I can deal with it, I just constantly feel like the walls are closing in a little and I can't breathe.

I'll be damned if I can identify why but... yeah, I just want to go hide from everyone right now. I'm not unhappy, I just want more out of life and if I could just figure out what it is I want, I might be able to do something about it... So yeah, that's my update. I'm gonna disappear for another couple weeks now

2:02am: "The black doesn't wash off. I feel like a racist" - J-Fucks
"My girlfriend's dead you know. She fell off a cliff and died on impact" - J-Fucks doing his best to pick up women
"It's okay. If he beats me now, I'll just beat him later" - Chloe at bowling

Yeah, twas an interesting weekend

12:04am:

Robo-Parents Congratulations!

Meant to complete Zim's acclimation into Earthanoid culture, the Robo-Parents are little more than malfunctioning, insane robots. However, they serve their purpose well enough to the point where no one has yet questioned them... then again, most people are not very smart. Prone to short circuiting with disasterous-but-hilarious results, the Robo-Parents make things interesting whether or not they are trying to eat a little boy, or just ramming into the wall.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 0% on Sanity You scored higher than 12% on Ambition You scored higher than 25% on Disposition You scored higher than 0% on Intelligence

Link: The Invader Zim Character Test written by ChromeDevil on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

So, I got the crappiest characters possible but yeah, check out how high I scored on sanity compared to everyone else. Damn

3:52pm: So the annual State of the Union Address drinking game was a rousing success. The following rules applied...

one drink: war, terror, Iraq, fucking up a word, anytime he makes a joke, whenever anything was beyond unreal (such as Cheney quite obviously passing gas... priceless)
three drinks: war on terror
drink continously: close up of a token black person, close up of the Bush twins, close up of a sleeping person, close up of a democratic presidential canidate

House rule: Condi doesn't count as a black person =P

So yeah, Nemi, Paul, AJ, and Chloe were all over, everyone got ridiculously drunk, and then we just kept going. Seriously, what the hell's with us and getting shitfaced on Tuesday nights? Yay us!

12:04pm: So... furry party update is called for I suppose.
Overall, it went pretty well I think. Everyone there seemed to have a pretty good time, there was a pretty high degree of intoxication (especially Tug... you're a fucking sally, learn to hold your liquor), martinis are always tastey, and Fishy Boner drew in my sketchbook. w00t!

Apart from that, not much went on between then and now. Bought my books, got my schedule straightened out (I'll be taking O. Chem on top of Mechanics and Intro to Genetics *whimper*) and have just generally been trying to prepare for school. So with that, the first day of class today went so-so. Like I said, I got into O. Chem so I'm now above part time but I had to be there at 7 in the morning to sit in on classes I wasn't enrolled in so I could try and sweet talk the professors. Bleah, getting up early is something I doubt I'll ever get used to. And walking back from class in the afternoon I got a phone call from my dad. Looks like the family dog's been in a lot of pain lately and stopped eating so they're taking him in to be put down tomorrow night. Yeah... >.>

5:44pm:

Your Penis Name Is...

Ivan the Terrible

Well... I suppose he was known for impaling his victims =P

Furry party tonight, should be amusing. I'll post how it goes later

7:09pm: I feel like I've drank away the better part of years.
My fears have me,
pinned against a wall.
Without them I would fall so,
before I'm gone let's have a cheers.
I've lived through some hard times,
I've done the best I could with what I've had.
Life is never a short flight,
I'm still so young how did I get so...

Pull up a stool,
Nothing to do except,
Shot after shot,
Drink till I puke.
And I'm,
Standing on the edge of what is real.

It's been a long weekend and life's been hitting me a lot lately. Blah

2:45am: O2 ftw lolz
So... today was fairly good though yesterday sucked. Basically, there was a big scene at a restraunt and my youngest brother is still frustrating me to no end. It looks like they found him a foster home at least but yeah, things ain't looking that hot all around. Anywho... today.

Went to the Mall of America and got to hang out with Silverfyre for pretty much the whole day which was squee indeed. After meeting up at Teavana (I got lost and ended up walking around about 7/8th of the mall) we did some wandering and book browsing. Oddly enough, we ended up outside the oxygen bar, decided we were both curious enough to try it, and plunked down our money. There was a sassy black woman working there (who was hilarious I might add and called Silver 'sugah' at several points) and for twenty bucks, we got to sit in some crazy chairs and huff 95% pure oxygen for twenty minutes while listening to soothing music. A rip off many of you might say... but I reply bullshit. For these chairs were magical. Imagine if you will, overstuffed black reclining easy chairs. Now imagine hundreds of tiny balls imbedded deep inside this padded chair along your thighs and legs, back and shoulders, up your neck, and also on your feet. Now imagine each of these balls is infused with the spirit of a japanese masseuse willing to give you "happy ending". I shit you not, the term Silver and I agreed upon to describe it was 'chair sex'. And though you really didn't notice too much difference in the oxygen apart from it being a little colder and slightly scented (they had 3 scents you could choose from or you could mix and match) when you arose from these chairs the world was a better place. Colors were brighter and more intense, you felt slightly tingly, and you were just all around happy. You were then led to a tiny bar where you hooked the tubes in your nose up to a number of flavored oxygens, were given a 200 mg caffiene shot (BUZZZZZZ) and the sassy black woman ran back massagers and scalp massagers over you for about ten more minutes. All told, we were in there for forty some minutes and it was worth every friggin' penny. I will definately be doing that again.

Apart from that we wandered some more, I bought a fun green hat, and then said our goodbyes. After I got home and ate real quick I went to Megan's house and got to play some Wii for the first time. Now on that note, my feelings are mixed. They only had Wii sports and the fun I had I cannot describe. But, thinking back on it... yeah, it was fairly simple, there wasn't a great deal of complexity, and the controls didn't seem all that responsive. Before buying one I think I'd have to try a commercial title as well but yeah, first impression was freakin' awesome but I'm torn. I also received a game of Flux for Christmas from the group which we played, then everyone headed home.

So, yeah... I now need sleep since I've taken a sleeping pill for the last two nights with absolutely no effect whatsoever. My body's frustrating me but I know it's just being slightly stressed from family stuff. Oh well, I'll crash hardcore eventually if my body really feels the need. Night all!

But first, some fun...

2:21pm: Well, let's see. I've been hanging out with all my high school buddies again. It never ceases to amaze me just how well we all click back together after so much time apart. A couple days ago we all met up at Caribou and played a game of Gloom (a fun, gothic and utterly depressing little card game that I recommend) before heading back to Nate's house, eating burned pizzas and watching movies and playing tabletop nerd games. God, nothing at all's changed and though we're all a little older and crazier, we all get along so well and it's just like old times... I guess I find that constant in my life very comforting. It's nice to know you have friends that will always be there, even if you fall out of touch.

Christmas was much nicer than I expected. All of my family behaved themselves (GASP!) which resulted in a quiet, mellow holiday I really enjoyed. The grandparents and my brother came early on to open gifts, then we went to my Uncle's house for lunch and to hang out. Since my uncle Dave is a chef... yeah, hot damn was that meal good. We hardly made a dent in the spread but after 5 plates, I thought I was going to burst. So instead I ended up playing board games with my 4 year old neice (man, she's the most adorable thing ever) before I crashed on the couch and just napped.

I guess I kinda made out like a bandit on the present front too. Some notable items were...
A 12 cup coffee pot that I can program to start at a certain time
A freakin' nice coffee grinder
3lbs of coffee (all combined, I'm just kinda gonna vibrate for the next year)
New bike... which is kinda sad at 21 but I needed one
Some books that I'd been wanting for a bit
Tea, tea, and more tea!

I also splurged and my Christmas money is already all gone for a present I bought myself. I went out and bought myself a nice little tea pot. For those that know me, I've always been a big tea drinker and I decided I wanted to branch out into loose leaf and not just bagged. So... I blew almost $100 all together to get a little two mug tea pot, a warmer stand, and some expensive and fancy teas. The tea pot itself is a flat little burnt orange colored cast iron Japanese pot with little maple leaves on it symbolizing spiritual growth (my brother pointed out they look like pot leaves... sonuva... grrr!) and yeah, I've been using it constantly and I really, really love it beyond words. The habit of brewing a pot has also kinda replaced my smoking habit so that's been helping too.

Other than that, not much to say. Going to Bucca's with my grandparents tonight and I've been drawing a ton of gift art. When I get back to WI I'll scan and post it all. Besides that, I'm looking forward to some upcoming travel plans to see friends, and then taking some quiet time off in Whitewater. Hope all your holidays went well guys!